I had an episode the other day and I can’t tell you how disappointed I was. It left me exhausted to say the least. I’ve been managing my OCD pretty well these days BUT that episode reminded me of something very important. Something I had realized before but possibly never really faced. I will always have OCD. It reminded me that it isn’t something I can escape but rather manage. I choose to manage my OCD and anxiety through mindfulness & self care. I refuse to be medicated (not that there is anything wrong with being medicated but it's not for me).
It is a challenge every fucking day but one I must continue if I plan to have a life where my OCD doesn’t control me.
The thing is I am not my OCD, I’m just me. Just Jasmine. I like the sound of that. It sounds simple and stress free. Carefree, something I'd like to be. I am trying to come to the realization that as long as I can be honest with myself, then I can overcome these episodes. I have been practicing the "art of letting things go" and it's been a really good thing. There are aspects of my OCD that I am not sure I will ever be able to get rid of, BUT, things are getting better. Baby steps right?
I wrote about it after it happened and made myself a cup of tea. It really helped me to be able to breathe and relax. Just checking in on the OCD front to tell you AND myself that things are better..
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