Dear new and improved me

Hi, I hope we can be friends. You don't know me yet, but I want to know you. For me weight loss has been so much more than the number on the scale. It’s been life changing - I know I can’t go back to who I was. I can't go back to my old ways. I don’t want to be ‘her’ anymore. She’s a bitch though and she’ll try to fuck this up somehow. 

I’m really enjoying working out and not wanting to throw up. Every work out no matter how small is a tiny victory, one I relish in. I love this new routine, I’ll admit I was hesitant at first but man does it feel good. This time feels different, like I finally feel like I have my shit together. 

I still struggle though, like an addict looking for it's next fix; food is MY drug. I LOVE it. Everyone has their vice and food is definitely mine. Some people forget to eat, nope - not me.. my day is planned around "eating". I've learned to have a healthier relationship with it - to not indulge as much. To eat until I feel satisfied instead of gorging my way through it all. Two words: PORTION CONTROL. 

It's funny how when you start to take things slow you actually really ENJOY your food. You discover new foods and realize FOOD no longer has a power over you. 

I have always had issues with my weight. For once I am not focused on the number on the scale as much I am focused on my overall progress. It's invigorating. So new and improved me, sit back and relax. I hope to have you here for the remainder of my stay. 

I hope to prove to you that I CAN and WILL do this.

With love,

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Ps. How are YOU doing on your fitness journey? I thought it was important to write it all down. To write a letter to myself to remind "myself" why I started this in the first place.